So last night I couldn't sleep. It was my worst in a long time. One would think that after a 5 hour training day one would sleep like a dog. Nope. You'd be wrong.
It was one of those sleeps you have after an Ironman. A post Ironman sleep is the worst. Again you think you'd sleep like a dog, nope, not after an Ironman. Maybe the second day after but not the night after finishing.
The sleep was nothing but tossing and turning and putting the covers on and taking them off. The body was burning up at times. The highlight of my night was getting up to take a pee.
Now for most this seems like a weird statement. For me it means only one thing, I'm getting in shape and losing weight.
When I was in the best shape of my life, Kona shape, I got up every night to pee. It was annoying. Then when I got out of shape I noticed I didn't pee. Usually it takes some time for me to train and then about 3 or 4 weeks later I start to get up at night and pee.
Looks like I'm at the beginning of week 2's training and I'm starting to pee. This is an unexpected bonus.
The bummer is it wakes you up, normally in the middle of an awesome dream. I try to keep my eyes closed and keep in the dream as I shuffle to the bathroom. This is one of those rare instances where I sit, so I can still try to sleep.
Today it didn't work. As I sat I felt the rim. Doh. I forgot to put the seat down last night. Thankfully I have a super fat ass and I was held up by the rim. The bummer was that that moment of ass to porcelain caused me to get out of my dream and wake up.
The next thing I know I'm wide awake and it's 6 am and I can't sleep. Again, training does that to you. It causes you to wake up early whether you like it or not. It's very counter intuitive.
On this post I'm not going to get into detail what excessive training and 4 Ironman's in one year does to your libido or lack there of. Prior to this situation I always thought Viagra was for guys who's wives didn't age well and they needed a boost.
I woke up and shuffled down the stairs. Yes shuffled. Again I haven't had that since heavy Ironman training. I've come to realize that in 2009 and 2010 when I was an animal with my training I over trained. Even though I made Kona I realize I could have been faster had I taken more recovery days.
Shuffling down the stairs when you are in the best shape of your life is a definite sign that you need a recovery day. It's something I've since learned. It took me until now to learn that.
My training for today was weight training and a swim. I started working early and frankly was working to avoid going to the gym. First off the weight training isn't too bad but the swim is not my favourite and after weights your arms are pretty sore.
It's been a long time since I've done a structured swim session with sets. It's been forever since I did a speed work swim session. Today I got my chance. It was tough. I hate swimming and wanted to quit after 45 minutes, after all 45 min of swimming is respectable.
In the speed work sessions I warm up with the butterfly and other strokes. The butterfly is hard. I toughed it out. I got to the 60 minute mark and had done 2500 yards and could have bailed and instead toughed it out to the end and did 3500 yards. Not bad for my 3 or 4th swim of the year.
To put how bad my swimming is my fastest was about 1:47 for 100 yards and near the end it was 1:58 per 100 yards. I used to do about 1:20 per 100 yards at my best to put it in perspective. I'd be super happy with 1:35 per 100 yards.
I got out of the pool proud. Proud that I toughed it out. I knew that if I didn't do that last 1000 yards which is about 20 more minutes I'd be upset with myself. It was a win in my books. I've often said doing the actual Ironman after all the training leading up to it is the victory lap. The real Ironman is persevering during all those weeks of training leading up to the race.
The one thing that kept me going was thinking about going with Alice out for some beers afterwards and to enjoy the rest of the evening. We did do that and hung out at the Judge and Jury for a bit. I'm doing my best to eat healthy and am dedicated to ordering salads. I even ate from a vegetable platter this morning. I have so far to go, although I did weigh in about 2 lbs lighter this morning.
I do love being back home. I realized I love humidity. I need it. It feels so warming. Even when it's warm out with the humidity it always feels warmer. I took a video when I got back on my Gopro and finally figured out how to download it. It's a time lapse of just over 2 hours of riding in my backyard in the Niagara Escarpment. It's absolutely beautiful. I've included the video in this post.
So the good new is the first two days of this week I've done over 7 hours of training just one hour shy of what I did in the whole of January.
On the snacking front I'm getting better but not great. As it stands now I had 3 beers, some pretzels and a little popcorn today. It's the two steps forward one step backward approach to Ironman training.
I do feel a lot better than last week, my first week of training. A lot better. There is still a long way to go of training and I need to put in a solid 8 weeks of training or I'm going to suffer big time.
On the making this the greatest summer ever front I've been spending almost everyday outside. Today I worked outside. I've also become a Canadian redneck and have the pellet gun out. As strange as this sounds I'm an amazing shooter. In a former or future life I could be a sniper, at least with a pellet gun. Lets just say we don't have too many birds hanging around the backyard lately.
That along with my Carlsberg Beer target fastened to the fence that I shoot at I'm honing up my skills. Alice told me the kids saw the target and asked what it was and then they referred to me as a redneck or trailer park type person. I can't recall. All I know is it's fun.
For the past two days I've been forced out of the house or downstairs. Reid is filming a short movie for a school project. All I know is the rules of the school are no drugs, alcohol or killing. I guess it's part of the school districts rules.
So Reid is shooting a movie about drugs, alcohol and killing. He's got all the props and his buddies have come over to help him all dressed in suits. He's got cornstarch and red food colouring for blood.
I'm sure once this is all done and edited we will be getting a call from the school. I really don't care. Have you watched TV lately? Frankly I'm just happy that he's engaged and taking it seriously. He wrote a script and is directing, staring in and editing his own film. To me that's what learning is all about.
Weights - 45 min
Swim - 1:25:13 / 3200 meters
Tuesday, June 10, 2014
Monday, June 9, 2014
My name is Bryan and I'm a FAT ASS...
So the Saturday after I arrived back from my 90 day tour of excessive beer and unhealthy food in Boise I weighed myself. I was 204.4 lbs. Ouch!!!
The good news was I figured I was 211 lbs. In either event I knew it wasn't good because on the car ride home my belt was pressing into my belly and left a branding mark. It was itchy and hurt and frankly looked pretty disgusting with this imprint of my belt on my belly.
It was kind of an unbelievable site. I was thinking how did all that happen in only 3 months?
Then it gets worse. I start training the day after I get back from Boise. I had to I have a full Ironman on August 3rd. Which as of today is only 8 weeks away. Typically you need a minimum of 12 weeks to train for one and the ideal would be 20 weeks.
So I start training last week and it kicks my A$$. I haven't felt so tired in as long as I can remember, ever. My first ride back from Boise I did a 3 hr ride and it was hell and near bonking afterwards. Last week Friday I did a run, pretty fast all considering and I was near ready to throw up afterwards.
I was asking myself "what the hell happened?"
What happened is the vicious cycle I've been putting my self through since I got into triathlons in 1986. I train, I get in great shape, I stop training, I eat and drink, I get fat and then I decided to get back in shape and I train and I eat better and I lose weight and I tell myself I'm not going to get caught in that vicious cycle again and then viola I do it all over again. It's like the directions on a shampoo bottle, "lather, rinse, repeat", except its "train, get thin, eat and drink like a pig, get fat, repeat".
So I thought 204.4lbs was bad enough and then today I weight myself AFTER my bike ride when I should be dehydrated and lighter and I'm 206.6 lbs.
I do know why I'm higher. First I've been training for a week and my body is creating and repairing muscle and to do that it requires the body to retain water. The second reason is I'm back taking beta Alanine to help repair the muscle damage and it facilities the retention of water.
I've been here before many times. My weight will stay this high for 2 - 3 weeks of which within that time I'll lose inches but not weight and then the weight will start peeling off.
The problem is I'm sick of this cycle. Every time I go from fat to fit it gets harder and harder especially as you get older. I always tell myself once I've thinned down that that is the last time I'm going to balloon up as it's too hard and painful to lose the weight. The last time I said that was after Ironman Cozumel. I trained super hard and ate very healthy, no beer and got in pretty good shape.
It was so hard work to get back into that shape that I promised myself I wasn't going to let myself go. Then low and behold not only do I let myself go I take it up a notch and now need to lose 20 lbs in 8 weeks to get down to my fighting weight.
The worst part is training with this big gut. It's like dragging along a 20 lb medicine ball. The tough part is that training doesn't make you lose weight as you get older. No matter how much you do. I've done 60 hours in one month and gained a pound. The only thing that makes you lose weight is dieting and my diet sucks.
It's better than Boise. I've really reduced my beer intake and I'm not eating the fried foods like wings and french fries. I'm still having a few beers and snacking.
The snacking is what kills me. In order to lose weight the key I've found is not to eat or snack after 8 pm. You want to have a bit of that hunger feeling in the evening. When you snack you lose that feeling and typically I'm snacking on high carb and high sugar snacks which spike my insulin and turn off my fat burning. It goes into fat loading.
Now I'm not all negative. I do try and play head games with myself. They start every morning after the day before. Before I wake up I play in my mind the good things I did the day before. So for example I may have had 3 beers and a huge bowl of popcorn yet I didn't have all that and the ice cream and liquorice that I had the day before.
Then I wake up the next day and saw well I didn't have any beers...win....I did have popcorn, a snickers bar and red liquorice. Its' still a win, it could have been worse, there was no beer!
When it's all said and done I know the secret is to "suck it up" and do no snacking and live through the hunger pangs at night.
The only problem is I want my cake and to eat it too. Literally.
I want to enjoy life on every level. I want to train, be in great shape, at my goal weight AND I want to eat whatever I want, drink what ever I want and do it when ever I want. I don't want to have to sacrifice.
Especially as I get older I find the motivation to diet is harder. As I get older the less vain I am which means my motivation to look good is less. On today's run I was actually thinking "what if I gave up Ironman's and just got fat and sloth like? Would it be more fun? Would I be more happy to just enjoy and not sweat?
I can tell you what I don't like and that's running with 20 extra pounds. Today I did just over 5 hours of training and it wasn't pleasant. I can feel the extra 20 lbs on the bike. Near the end of the ride I was feeling like I feel after a 7 hour ride. Then on the run I felt that I was running gut first. If it came down to the wire my chest wouldn't cross first instead it would be my gut.
Then I play things in my mind like "you know if you just eat strict for a week you'll be down 5 - 10 lbs and if you did it for a 2 months you'd be down to 180lbs". Only issue is it hurts not to eat.
I remember not that long ago that if I stepped on the scale and I was over 183 lbs I'd be freaking out. Then it became 185 lbs, then 188 lbs, then 190 lbs and now I'm at 206.6 lbs. I will say if I could stay under 185 lbs I'd be happy.
Training for me is different right now. I don't have the same motivations I used to have. For a number of years when I was uber serious and qualified for Clearwater and Kona I was just a man on a mission. I was out to prove something to myself and others and training was my number one focus.
Now that I've done that and got the T-shirt and have put in more 100 mile rides than I could count I don't have the same motivations as years past. I do remember in one year doing 26 rides over 100 miles and don't forget half our year is winter. I was a mad man back then in 2010. Now I'm trying to figure out when to do my 100 mile training rides around trying to hang out with family and smell the roses.
This morning I sat down and figured out my next 8 week training plan. It went fast. I saw all the 6 - 7 hour rides and 2 - 3 hour runs and it didn't excite me like years past. I was thinking two things, first I'm fat and two, I need to try to make this work and still not sacrifice having a rich personal life.
I guess you could call this a new phase. I can see why many people get into Ironman's and then after one or two drift off to deal with regular life stuff and then others continue to do them and never really focus on regular life stuff. That's why it's often said Ironman's are a selfish sport.
So here I am in a different head space than I've ever been in and trying to figure out a new motivation.
In many respects I think I'm forging new ground. Not many people stick around and do as many Ironman's as me. The ones that do still have major personal issues they are working through, me included. Yet my issues are not where they used to be and not big enough to carry me through the heavy training hours without losing my hunger.
There is a lot to be said for where I am. It's like discovering a new path and the only way you can is by taking the long road to get there. You can't get to this stage easily. For me it's been Over 25 years of doing triathlons and 11 Ironmans that I'm entering this new world and trying to figure out how to keep it up without it taking first priority in your life.
And now some props....
I want to give a shout out to Derek Rogers @drogman for a great finish at Kansas City Ironman 70.3, he finished in the 40 - 44 age group with a 4:34. Amazing time and he has an amazing story. Not mine to tell but epic from where he came from to where he is now. I met him via twitter, we became friends, we did Ironman Lake Placid together and we've kept in touch. I've seen him from just getting into the sport as a middle of the packer to someone that was made for the sport. Good work D.
Mod Bike - 3:46:51 / 100.8 km / 26.7 kn
Mod Run - 1:21:26 / 14.82 km / 5:29 per km
The good news was I figured I was 211 lbs. In either event I knew it wasn't good because on the car ride home my belt was pressing into my belly and left a branding mark. It was itchy and hurt and frankly looked pretty disgusting with this imprint of my belt on my belly.
It was kind of an unbelievable site. I was thinking how did all that happen in only 3 months?
Then it gets worse. I start training the day after I get back from Boise. I had to I have a full Ironman on August 3rd. Which as of today is only 8 weeks away. Typically you need a minimum of 12 weeks to train for one and the ideal would be 20 weeks.
So I start training last week and it kicks my A$$. I haven't felt so tired in as long as I can remember, ever. My first ride back from Boise I did a 3 hr ride and it was hell and near bonking afterwards. Last week Friday I did a run, pretty fast all considering and I was near ready to throw up afterwards.
I was asking myself "what the hell happened?"
What happened is the vicious cycle I've been putting my self through since I got into triathlons in 1986. I train, I get in great shape, I stop training, I eat and drink, I get fat and then I decided to get back in shape and I train and I eat better and I lose weight and I tell myself I'm not going to get caught in that vicious cycle again and then viola I do it all over again. It's like the directions on a shampoo bottle, "lather, rinse, repeat", except its "train, get thin, eat and drink like a pig, get fat, repeat".
So I thought 204.4lbs was bad enough and then today I weight myself AFTER my bike ride when I should be dehydrated and lighter and I'm 206.6 lbs.
I do know why I'm higher. First I've been training for a week and my body is creating and repairing muscle and to do that it requires the body to retain water. The second reason is I'm back taking beta Alanine to help repair the muscle damage and it facilities the retention of water.
I've been here before many times. My weight will stay this high for 2 - 3 weeks of which within that time I'll lose inches but not weight and then the weight will start peeling off.
The problem is I'm sick of this cycle. Every time I go from fat to fit it gets harder and harder especially as you get older. I always tell myself once I've thinned down that that is the last time I'm going to balloon up as it's too hard and painful to lose the weight. The last time I said that was after Ironman Cozumel. I trained super hard and ate very healthy, no beer and got in pretty good shape.
It was so hard work to get back into that shape that I promised myself I wasn't going to let myself go. Then low and behold not only do I let myself go I take it up a notch and now need to lose 20 lbs in 8 weeks to get down to my fighting weight.
The worst part is training with this big gut. It's like dragging along a 20 lb medicine ball. The tough part is that training doesn't make you lose weight as you get older. No matter how much you do. I've done 60 hours in one month and gained a pound. The only thing that makes you lose weight is dieting and my diet sucks.
It's better than Boise. I've really reduced my beer intake and I'm not eating the fried foods like wings and french fries. I'm still having a few beers and snacking.
The snacking is what kills me. In order to lose weight the key I've found is not to eat or snack after 8 pm. You want to have a bit of that hunger feeling in the evening. When you snack you lose that feeling and typically I'm snacking on high carb and high sugar snacks which spike my insulin and turn off my fat burning. It goes into fat loading.
Now I'm not all negative. I do try and play head games with myself. They start every morning after the day before. Before I wake up I play in my mind the good things I did the day before. So for example I may have had 3 beers and a huge bowl of popcorn yet I didn't have all that and the ice cream and liquorice that I had the day before.
Then I wake up the next day and saw well I didn't have any beers...win....I did have popcorn, a snickers bar and red liquorice. Its' still a win, it could have been worse, there was no beer!
When it's all said and done I know the secret is to "suck it up" and do no snacking and live through the hunger pangs at night.
The only problem is I want my cake and to eat it too. Literally.
I want to enjoy life on every level. I want to train, be in great shape, at my goal weight AND I want to eat whatever I want, drink what ever I want and do it when ever I want. I don't want to have to sacrifice.
Especially as I get older I find the motivation to diet is harder. As I get older the less vain I am which means my motivation to look good is less. On today's run I was actually thinking "what if I gave up Ironman's and just got fat and sloth like? Would it be more fun? Would I be more happy to just enjoy and not sweat?
I can tell you what I don't like and that's running with 20 extra pounds. Today I did just over 5 hours of training and it wasn't pleasant. I can feel the extra 20 lbs on the bike. Near the end of the ride I was feeling like I feel after a 7 hour ride. Then on the run I felt that I was running gut first. If it came down to the wire my chest wouldn't cross first instead it would be my gut.
Then I play things in my mind like "you know if you just eat strict for a week you'll be down 5 - 10 lbs and if you did it for a 2 months you'd be down to 180lbs". Only issue is it hurts not to eat.
I remember not that long ago that if I stepped on the scale and I was over 183 lbs I'd be freaking out. Then it became 185 lbs, then 188 lbs, then 190 lbs and now I'm at 206.6 lbs. I will say if I could stay under 185 lbs I'd be happy.
Training for me is different right now. I don't have the same motivations I used to have. For a number of years when I was uber serious and qualified for Clearwater and Kona I was just a man on a mission. I was out to prove something to myself and others and training was my number one focus.
Now that I've done that and got the T-shirt and have put in more 100 mile rides than I could count I don't have the same motivations as years past. I do remember in one year doing 26 rides over 100 miles and don't forget half our year is winter. I was a mad man back then in 2010. Now I'm trying to figure out when to do my 100 mile training rides around trying to hang out with family and smell the roses.
This morning I sat down and figured out my next 8 week training plan. It went fast. I saw all the 6 - 7 hour rides and 2 - 3 hour runs and it didn't excite me like years past. I was thinking two things, first I'm fat and two, I need to try to make this work and still not sacrifice having a rich personal life.
I guess you could call this a new phase. I can see why many people get into Ironman's and then after one or two drift off to deal with regular life stuff and then others continue to do them and never really focus on regular life stuff. That's why it's often said Ironman's are a selfish sport.
So here I am in a different head space than I've ever been in and trying to figure out a new motivation.
In many respects I think I'm forging new ground. Not many people stick around and do as many Ironman's as me. The ones that do still have major personal issues they are working through, me included. Yet my issues are not where they used to be and not big enough to carry me through the heavy training hours without losing my hunger.
There is a lot to be said for where I am. It's like discovering a new path and the only way you can is by taking the long road to get there. You can't get to this stage easily. For me it's been Over 25 years of doing triathlons and 11 Ironmans that I'm entering this new world and trying to figure out how to keep it up without it taking first priority in your life.
And now some props....
I want to give a shout out to Derek Rogers @drogman for a great finish at Kansas City Ironman 70.3, he finished in the 40 - 44 age group with a 4:34. Amazing time and he has an amazing story. Not mine to tell but epic from where he came from to where he is now. I met him via twitter, we became friends, we did Ironman Lake Placid together and we've kept in touch. I've seen him from just getting into the sport as a middle of the packer to someone that was made for the sport. Good work D.
Mod Bike - 3:46:51 / 100.8 km / 26.7 kn
Mod Run - 1:21:26 / 14.82 km / 5:29 per km
Sunday, June 8, 2014
I'm back different...
I can't believe the last time I blogged was February 5th. So much has happened since then.
The big thing is I quit my job as a Silicon Valley president to move to Boise for 90 days with a documentary crew to follow me on my journey to create the next big social app. An either billion dollar idea or bust. We still don't know yet which it will be. It's called Salmon Social and you can read about the journey here as I blogged daily.
In the process I started somewhat in shape as I did Ironman Cozumel in December and over this 90 day journey I gained about 15 lbs and got somewhat out of shape.
Here's why...my total training hours
January - 8.33 hours
Feb - 21.34 hours
March - 28.87 hours
April - 11.28 hours
May - 15.58 hours
For a grand total of 85.4 hours over 5 months.
To put it into perspective in November 2013 alone I did 61.19 hours of training just before Cozumel.
I now have exactly 8 weeks to go from no real training base to full Ironman ready in 8 weeks. I also need to ideally bring my weight down 20 lbs. I'm about 206 lbs right now and need to be around 185 lbs.
This past week has been my first week back training since getting back from Boise and it was very unexpected when I felt so lousy. I've went periods of time without training before but I've never had it kick my butt when I get back to training. This week I had my butt kicked. It was kind of scary.
I wasn't sure if it was the climate change or just I'm out of shape and heavier than I have been in over 7 years.
This week I was riding and a guy name George pulled up and we started talking. I told him I loved it out here. He asked where I'm from and I said Winnipeg. Then it dawned on me. I've been here now for 10 years. I'm no longer a new bee from Winnipeg. I'm an Ontarian after 10 years.
That got me thinking that I got back into Ironman shape in 2007 by dropping 50 lbs and doing my Ironman comeback in 2008 at Ironman Louisville. Fast forward 7 years and so much has happened. In 2010 I qualified and did Kona and now in 2014 I'm back being about 25 lbs overweight and out of shape and since 2008 I did 8 Ironmans.
Fitness is a zero sum game. It doesn't care nor take into account what you've done in the past. If you don't keep training you lose it. The only benefit to once being in shape is your body has muscle memory and it can bounce back a little faster than those that do not have it.
These past 5 months have been a major life changing experience for me on so many levels. I think getting older makes one more motivated to want to change one's life for the better.
I made a decision that this is going to be my best ever summer. My last best ever summer was when I was 13 years old and didn't have to work a summer job and hung out with my buddy Jerry. What made it was a great summer was I had a ton of fun. I was staying with my grandmother and found $300 in her drawer and as the summer progress I took $20 at a time and had fun with it. Then found some coins I sold when we rain out of that money.
By the end of the summer it was gone and I was done when I got busted. I paid a heavy disciplinary price and eventually paid it back with earnings from selling popcorn at the Winnipeg Jet's games and it was an ugly situation when I got caught. I then replaced the coins in my 30's.
Looking back it was also the greatest summer of my life. I want this year to be the greatest summer of my life and to make that one number two.
Having the greatest summer is not about having a great summer of training. It's about having a well rounded great summer on all level, especially with my family.
This summer I want to....
* Spend as much time outside enjoying the weather even when I'm working. I want to work from outside if the weather is nice. Too many summers past I worked all day and never saw the light of day.
* Put my family ahead of training and still not sacrifice training.
* Enjoying and valuing the little things. Like sitting having a coffee or walking around a shopping mall or sitting on a park bench watching.
* Get rid of unnecessary life noise, that which takes away from the richness of life. Things like getting caught up on Facebook or Twitter for no value other than fighting boredom.
* Enjoy every meal and every beer.
* Do things that have no end goal. Like going to a concert or festival. Volunteer.
* Smell the roses. Appreciate what I have.
* Enjoy the summer launching Salmon Social.
At 48 years old and after all those years of experiences am I only now starting to fully understand the errors of my ways and what is truly important in life. I now feel hurried to make the best of the amount of time I have left. Strange part is I may have 30 more good years left yet at my age you never know, it could be 3 months or 3 years.
All I know is I have this overriding sense that I need to chill and start enjoying life with those I love around me.
The big thing is I quit my job as a Silicon Valley president to move to Boise for 90 days with a documentary crew to follow me on my journey to create the next big social app. An either billion dollar idea or bust. We still don't know yet which it will be. It's called Salmon Social and you can read about the journey here as I blogged daily.
In the process I started somewhat in shape as I did Ironman Cozumel in December and over this 90 day journey I gained about 15 lbs and got somewhat out of shape.
Here's why...my total training hours
January - 8.33 hours
Feb - 21.34 hours
March - 28.87 hours
April - 11.28 hours
May - 15.58 hours
For a grand total of 85.4 hours over 5 months.
To put it into perspective in November 2013 alone I did 61.19 hours of training just before Cozumel.
I now have exactly 8 weeks to go from no real training base to full Ironman ready in 8 weeks. I also need to ideally bring my weight down 20 lbs. I'm about 206 lbs right now and need to be around 185 lbs.
This past week has been my first week back training since getting back from Boise and it was very unexpected when I felt so lousy. I've went periods of time without training before but I've never had it kick my butt when I get back to training. This week I had my butt kicked. It was kind of scary.
I wasn't sure if it was the climate change or just I'm out of shape and heavier than I have been in over 7 years.
This week I was riding and a guy name George pulled up and we started talking. I told him I loved it out here. He asked where I'm from and I said Winnipeg. Then it dawned on me. I've been here now for 10 years. I'm no longer a new bee from Winnipeg. I'm an Ontarian after 10 years.
That got me thinking that I got back into Ironman shape in 2007 by dropping 50 lbs and doing my Ironman comeback in 2008 at Ironman Louisville. Fast forward 7 years and so much has happened. In 2010 I qualified and did Kona and now in 2014 I'm back being about 25 lbs overweight and out of shape and since 2008 I did 8 Ironmans.
Fitness is a zero sum game. It doesn't care nor take into account what you've done in the past. If you don't keep training you lose it. The only benefit to once being in shape is your body has muscle memory and it can bounce back a little faster than those that do not have it.
These past 5 months have been a major life changing experience for me on so many levels. I think getting older makes one more motivated to want to change one's life for the better.
I made a decision that this is going to be my best ever summer. My last best ever summer was when I was 13 years old and didn't have to work a summer job and hung out with my buddy Jerry. What made it was a great summer was I had a ton of fun. I was staying with my grandmother and found $300 in her drawer and as the summer progress I took $20 at a time and had fun with it. Then found some coins I sold when we rain out of that money.
By the end of the summer it was gone and I was done when I got busted. I paid a heavy disciplinary price and eventually paid it back with earnings from selling popcorn at the Winnipeg Jet's games and it was an ugly situation when I got caught. I then replaced the coins in my 30's.
Looking back it was also the greatest summer of my life. I want this year to be the greatest summer of my life and to make that one number two.
Having the greatest summer is not about having a great summer of training. It's about having a well rounded great summer on all level, especially with my family.
This summer I want to....
* Spend as much time outside enjoying the weather even when I'm working. I want to work from outside if the weather is nice. Too many summers past I worked all day and never saw the light of day.
* Put my family ahead of training and still not sacrifice training.
* Enjoying and valuing the little things. Like sitting having a coffee or walking around a shopping mall or sitting on a park bench watching.
* Get rid of unnecessary life noise, that which takes away from the richness of life. Things like getting caught up on Facebook or Twitter for no value other than fighting boredom.
* Enjoy every meal and every beer.
* Do things that have no end goal. Like going to a concert or festival. Volunteer.
* Smell the roses. Appreciate what I have.
* Enjoy the summer launching Salmon Social.
At 48 years old and after all those years of experiences am I only now starting to fully understand the errors of my ways and what is truly important in life. I now feel hurried to make the best of the amount of time I have left. Strange part is I may have 30 more good years left yet at my age you never know, it could be 3 months or 3 years.
All I know is I have this overriding sense that I need to chill and start enjoying life with those I love around me.
Thursday, February 6, 2014
If I Knew Then, What I Know Now
I
truly believe business is about more than just money, it’s also a journey of
personal growth and provides the opportunity to better oneself.
I’ve
been fortunate to be apart of the entire life cycle of business.
I
started my first business, cutting grass, at 17 years old with my future wife;
no money, my dad’s lawn mower and transporting it around in the trunk of my
mom’s car. By the time I sold it at 19 years old, I had a staff of 13 and lots
of equipment.
My
next business I started at 24 years old with next to no money. Fast-forward 20
years when I sold it, it had become the largest on-demand digital book printing
facility in Canada.
In
that time, I’ve been fortunate to have experienced every facet of business.
From growing a 2 person start up to a very large business with a staff of over 100
people. To re-inventing my company twice and at the worst having to lay off half
of my staff in less than 12 months for survival before turning it around.
Two
years ago I launched Picaboo Yearbooks, which started with just two of us and
is now a staff and sales force of over 100 people.
I’ve
been fortunate to experience such diverse situations. It’s been an incredible
journey both professionally and personally.
My
post today is about “If I Knew Then, What I Know Now. My 5 Business
Tips”
These
5 tips may surprise you. They have nothing to do with tactics on how to manage
and grow your business.
They
are guiding principals. I like to think of them as a compass that will help you
on your journey as you grow your business and over come challenges you face
along the way.
These
5 tips have everything to do with helping you grow personally and enjoying the
journey and adventure you began when you started your business.
I’ve
found that these lessons learned always gave me the right perspective and
confidence to succeed in business, relationships and non-business interests and
hobbies.
Here
are 5 lessons I wish I knew, and to my knowledge they do not teach at business
school.
And
here are those 5 lessons I wish I knew …
· Education is Over-rated
· Be Emotional
· Never Make a Mistake
· Put Your Staff and Customers Second
· Fake it till you make it
Education is Over-rated.
Starting
a business is a big decision and can be intimidating. There is so much to know
and there are infinite situations you could be faced with. Here’s a secret;
even those who studied years and perhaps even have their M.B.A’s are just as
scared as anyone when they start a business. There is no guarantee no matter
how smart you are that you will succeed. In fact having a formal education can
be a negative because can set boundaries on one’s thinking that may not exist.
In
my opinion the attributes you need to grow your business is “an unrelenting
desire and passion to succeed” and good old-fashioned “common sense” and
“confidence in yourself”. Business schools can’t teach that, they only teach
principals and tactics.
For
example, I have no formal business training. I went to an exclusive boys high
school, one where everyone was expected to go on to College or University. I
didn’t. My friends at the time not only though I was foolish and even made fun
of me, in fact, my grade twelve yearbook picture included the text “Goal - off
to build Cut Rite Lawns Empire, Fate – Cutting grass for the City”.
Undeterred
I went right into the workforce working 5 years for someone before starting my
own business. In that time I learned 4 critical and timeless principals that I
use to this day daily. They were how to communicate, collaborate, critically
think and be creative.
My
effectiveness was measured in “real world” results, not the grading of a paper.
Fast
forward to my 10-year High School Reunion. I was reluctant to go, even though I
was relatively successful running my own business by this point.
The
reason was I painfully remembered the pot shots and ribbing I took from my
classmates about not following the path of post secondary education.
I
ended up going. I was shocked at the conversations I had with my old
classmates. More than a few said that over the years they had thought about me
and my decision to go directly into the workforce and wished they had done the
same. They explained those following four years seemed like just an extension
of high school and once they entered the workforce they realized they had a lot
to learn. They felt my decision gave me a career jump-start.
Fast
forward to today. I launched Picaboo Yearbooks. I’m the President. I work with
some of the brightest people I’ve ever worked with, highly educated, many from
Ivy League colleges.
Yet
here I am leading the company and I only have a high school education and I
make no apologizes for it. In fact, in some way my journey is a bit
intimidating to some. They ask how someone with no formal business education
could make it to the highest level of business, especially in this day and age.
I
like to joke with them that I bypassed college ball and when right into the NBA.
My
point is that none of you should be intimidated that you don’t have the formal
skill sets to succeed in your business. It’s not necessary. What is necessary
is again, “an unrelenting desire and passion to succeed” and good old fashioned
“common sense” and “confidence in yourself”.
Everything
else you can learn.
Be Emotional
People
think business is no place for personal feelings; that you need to take
personal feelings out of business decision making.
Business
is much more than financial success, that’s just one measurement. It’s an
important one for survival, but there even a greater benefit you can achieve
than making lots of money.
These
benefits can also be achieved even in the unfortunate event that your business
fails.
To
me it’s about personal growth and becoming a better person day after day, year
after year, decade after decade.
How
do you grow personally through business? You monitor your internal feelings and
reflect on them.
For
example, we have all been in circumstances where we are communicating with
someone or face a challenge and become emotionally distraught, or perhaps
angry. Sometimes we can go into the red zone internally and depending on your
personality, on one extreme you may hold it in, on the other extreme you may
explode.
You
need to look forward to these situations. These are the situations that if
you’re open to it will make you grow as a person and the more you grow as a
person the more you will be able to handle day to day business challenges you
face.
For
example, when I got into business I thought I knew it all. I lacked patience.
As a young person I’d get frustrated with people that didn’t get it, or
disagreed. As boss I’d often be a bull in a China shop and push forward.
The
same could happen when I was dealing with customers. There could be situations
where there were differences of opinions. I’d feel my emotions starting to
bubble up.
During
these moments that caused emotional bubbling it would change my state of mind.
I would become negative, perform lots of self-justification talk and have
negative conversation with my wife about my day. These types of emotions would
at times wear me down and I’d question myself at times if running my own
business was worth the hassle?
I
can’t remember when or how I had this epiphany one day, but fully recognized
that the emotions I was feeling were a reflection of my issues, not the other
persons.
When
put in those types of circumstances that would cause emotional feelings I’d
start to ask myself “what is YOUR problem? As opposed to “what is THEIR problem?”
This
was a huge turning point in my personal growth development.
My
perspective on these situations totally changed. I started to welcome these
types of situations as they would give me things that I need to address
internally”. My conversations with my wife and confidants would be primarily
focused on introspective reflection.
Each
time these emotionally charged circumstances presented themselves I’d focus on
resolving the reasons I was having those feelings.
It
worked.
I
started becoming a better person.
More
patient, more open to ideas, more non-judgmental, more focused on tasks and
goals than personalities. I started to become more peaceful inside and I’d like
to think wise.
Of
course we are not perfect and never will be. We are a constant work in process
and I still have emotional feelings given circumstances, albeit less than I
used to and I still look forward to understanding why I do and addressing them.
An
unexpected upside is identifying and addressing the root cause of these
emotions have carried over to my personal life. I’d like to think I’m a better
father, son, husband, brother and friend than I otherwise would have been.
You
can’t always control the market and whether on not you succeed or fail. But you
can grow personally from your business experiences.
If
given the choice, as strange as this may sound, if given the choice between failing
in business and personal growth, I’d prefer to fail in business. Growing as a
person is much more fulfilling and the best part is it is totally in your
control.
Never Make a Mistake
It’s
so important to stay positive and look at every circumstance you face
positively.
It’s
any easy thing to do when things are going well. It’s when things don’t go well
that it’s most difficult.
As
business owners our first reaction is to immediately look to the negative and
determine “What in the decision making went wrong?” and it definitely makes
sense to do this.
The
key is not to dwell what went wrong as a mistake. Instead you need to look at
it as a “learning opportunity”. I don’t even like using the word mistake.
Now
I’m not saying we don’t make mistakes; we do. If we are given clear
instructions from a customer, boss or whoever and we don’t follow them that
could be deemed a mistake.
Or
if we had our “learning opportunity” and have the exact same “learning
opportunity” again, than that could be defined as a mistake because you’ve
already gained the knowledge to know better the second time around.
The
key principal is to stay positive. Even in situations or a task that you made a
mistake, I’m sure you make many positive decisions or had many positive
experiences. These are the items you need to dwell on.
For
example, everything in business strategy is an educated guess. I don’t care who
you are, your experience, your background or knowledge, business strategy is
theory until it’s proven.
I
can’t tell you how many times I’ve had “learning opportunities” when
determining strategy. More often than not my initial strategy is not correct.
However, as I go down the path I adjust my path based on my learning. I don’t
deem these learning’s as mistakes, that’s a “glass is half empty approach”.
It’s the kind of philosophy that creates ulcers.
Eventually,
hopefully, you will determine an effective strategy and when you do, you need
to celebrate the journey. Without a doubt there will be many more positives
than negatives if you look for them.
I
like to use the example of a rock climber. They have a goal “to get to the top
of the cliff”. They don’t start knowing exactly how they are going to do it.
They are constantly making mid-course adjustments along the way. When they get
to the top there’s no doubt an overwhelming sense of euphoria and
accomplishment. They focus on the success and will reflect back on some of the
things they learnt along the way. Even celebrating those learning’s because
they over came.
Now
imagine if they dealt with it in the opposite fashion. Where every move they
made that didn’t work and caused them to readjust the called a mistake and beat
up on themselves? How horrible of an experience would that be. I’m sure by the
time they got to the top they would be more relieved it’s over rather than
celebrating the fact that they made it to the top.
In
short, think of yourself as a businessperson rock climber. Stay positive and
focus on enjoying the learning opportunities that you learnt along the way.
Put Your Staff and Customers
Second
It’s
so easy to start a business and in short order it becomes all-consuming with
the pressure to succeed.
Let’s
face it - your business is a reflection of yourself. It’s also very exciting
when you start a business. Everything is new. You’ve been thinking about it for
some time and it’s somewhat romantic.
You
dream about how successful you will be, things you can do with the money you
make, perhaps travel, or purchase those things you always wanted or save for
retirement and the list goes on and on.
It
is oh so easy to get caught into the work-aholic trap. It’s most likely going
to happen if you have a high desire and passion to succeed.
Typically
we all start our business with no or very few customers. There is tremendous
pressure to get sales in the door and when you do get a customer you don’t want
to let them down. It’s not uncommon that we under estimate how much time will
be involved and put pressure on ourselves to meet the tight deadlines causing
you to work as many hours in the day that are required with complete focus.
Or
you start becoming successful and take on more work than you can handle and
there are only so many hours in the day.
If
you’re fortunate to be in a situation where you are in high demand you need to
decide your next step and whether you main the current size or grow it with
employees.
If
you have employees one of the first learning opportunities one faces is following
the belief that you must work harder than your employees and lead by example.
You
also feel that this is your baby and no one can do as good as a job as you.
It’s very easy to micro manage, especially if you’ve never started a business
or managed people before.
I’ve
seen many a business owner get caught into these flawed philosophies of having
to work harder than their staff or that no one can do the job as good at them.
I’ve been caught in it myself. It sounds good on paper but it’s really a
slippery slope towards burnout and failure.
The
reality is to succeed you need to maintain perspective. There will always be
those times that you have to put in the extra hours that might include all
nighters, those are usually caused from awesome “learning opportunities”, but
it’s not sustainable.
I
realize this is easier said than done.
To
do it, it takes COURAGE.
Courage
to say no. Courage to stay back. Courage to put yourself first. It’s not easy.
I
could go into many strategies on how to do this and there is no silver bullet.
Each of us is different with circumstances that may require unique strategies.
The
key is putting limits on yourself. Early in my career I realized that the crazy
hours I was putting in wasn’t a positive, it was a negative. I would look at
others that were successful and saw them working 8 hours and taking an hour for
lunch and rarely working weekends.
Here
I was getting to work at 6 am and working until 7 pm or later and taking work
home. Then I’d go in for some hours on the weekend to catch up with paperwork.
I did this for years.
Eventually
one day I had an epiphany. I realized I was a lousy businessperson and manager.
I couldn’t get my work done like others in regular working hours. I wasn’t
working smart, I was working hard. Albeit I was succeeding it was a great
personal expense. I was burnt out often and more often than now had a poor
perspective.
Eventually
it went from the romance and fun of owning a business to drudgery and I felt
like a rat on a wheel. I was jealous of my employees that went home after a
workday and spent time doing what they enjoyed and spending time with family
and friends evenings and weekends.
They
did look at me as an example, but it wasn’t an example of admiration, it was an
example of what they don’t want to do.
What
I’ve found over the years is employees want to work for successful people, both
personally and professionally. You know you are a great boss if your staff is jealous
of your lifestyle.
The
example you want to set is showing them that you can leave early, that you can
take your family on vacation, essentially that you have it all. Who among us
doesn’t want to work for a successful person? The upside is those successful
bosses do so by empowering their employees to do the job, which gives the
employee great job satisfaction when someone is not looing over their shoulder.
I
can tell you that this too is a constant struggle to not burn ones self out. If
your lucky and your business is fun, it’s very easy to burn yourself out as
well.
In
my circumstance I do the following:
· Try to work 8 hours a
day and no more than 10.
· Try to not work weekends
and only 3 hours on the weekend if I have to.
· I work only my fingers.
My staff laughs at me because all I do is point, the joke is that if I break my
finger I’ll have to go on work mans compensation. I don’t dirty my hands. I
don’t roll up the sleeves and pitch in. I lead. I don’t ask them to do my job
setting strategy and dealing with constant business challenges and problems, so
they shouldn’t expect me to do their job.
· I have a lock box for my
Laptop and Cell Phones. I put them into it after 8 pm and only my wife knows
the combination. I often have wait for her to wake up before I can start work. It
was my idea.
· I have a life and
interests outside of work, in my case it’s Ironman Triathlons, and also make
sure I find ways to be engaged with my family. Such as travel, or going to
movies, or out for dinner.
· I exercise & Eat Healthy
Regularly.
· I enjoy a cocktail or
treat myself when I need to.
.
Fake it till you make it
Before
anyone starts a business they visualize what it will be like. Although there is
always fear, most of the feelings and thoughts that push you over the edge are
positive.
You
imagine what it will be like. You imagine things like how fun and rewarding it
will be to be your own boss. You imagine how great it will be pursuing
something you love, something you are passionate about. You imagine how great
it will be making more money and all the things you are going to do with it.
Essentially
before you even got started you visualized your future.
Then
you get started and starting a business is scary. There are lots of unknowns. There
are a lot of things you need to learn. You have very few or no customers.
All
of a sudden you go from this idyllic situation of what you want to do in your
business in your mind to the reality that can be scary.
Customers
and employees can sense fear or lack of confidence.
Early
in my career I lost many a sale because I was nervous about whether we could
deliver or I spoke too much and talked myself out of a sale. Customers
intuitively sensed my lack of confidence or panic.
Then
I learned a lesson from one of my customers. A wise older gentleman with one of
the most successful magazine publishing businesses in the United States. He
lived in a 24 room apartment on Fifth Avenue, a Summer house in the Hamptons,
had 2 Butlers and a Chauffer that would drive him the 4 blocks to work in one
of his two Rolls Royce’s.
I
was 27 years old and he was in his early 70’s. For some reason he liked me and
took me under his wing.
One
day I came to visit and he took me to lunch at his private table at the famed 21
club in NYC.
During
lunch he told me his story. He was born very poor and only had a 6th
grade education. When he decided to start his publishing business he had very
little money, he was boot strapping it.
But
he told me the day he opened his doors he convinced himself he was the most
successful publisher in NYC. He didn’t even have a customer and he was
completely and utterly convinced he was the most successful with all his heart.
In
every dealing he had he approached it as he would if he was the most successful
publisher in NYC. He exuded confidence and success.
It
didn’t stop at just exuding confidence in his business dealing; it included
everything.
Even
though he had very limited resources, he would travel and stay at the best
hotels. The type of hotels that the most successful publisher in NYC would
stay. He would set up customer lunches at the most expensive restuarants. He
wore custom tailored suits. He bought expensive jewelry.
To
put it simply, he appeared to be the most successful publisher in NYC and the
reality was he was near broke.
Yet
he told me that when you believe something with all your heart and you live in
that world as if it is real, it will eventually become real and in his case it
did.
In
a relatively short period of time he arguably became one of the most success
publishers in NYC.
I
figured if a man with a grade 6 education, from a dirt-poor family and starting
a business with very little money proved this philosophy worked for him, could
it work for me?
At
that point, I was a very small business and struggling with about a staff of 10
employees. Making payroll was often a challenge.
I
hadn’t yet learned the 5 lessons I’m sharing with you today.
So
I committed myself to trying it. What did I have to lose?
For
it to work he told me I had to be “all in”. There was no halfway or it wouldn’t
work.
Taking
his advice I “brainwashed” myself to become one of the most successful graphic
arts business of our kind in North America.
In
only 7 years after that decision my company was recognized as one of the Top
100 graphic arts facilities of it’s type with near 100 employees and extremely
profitable.
How’d
I do it? I had convinced myself my vision of success was a reality. I exuded
confidence with customers. I bought my first ever $1000 custom tailored suit. I
started flying business class. I started staying at better hotels. I rented
full size cars.
I
also ran my company as I would if I was one of the most successful graphic arts
company. I increased employee benefits. I started paying my staff slightly more
than the industry norm. I supported employee social initiatives and I raised
the bar on quality and convinced my staff that working at my company they had
reached the pinnacle of their careers. They had made the big leagues. I did
that by bringing in printing related work for prestigious companies across
North America.
I
was located in the small and very cold city of Winnipeg and I convinced
companies from across the U.S. like Disney, Pixar, Random House, Scholastic,
Aspen Magazine, Honda, AT&T, HP and many other companies to send their high
quality work 1000’s of miles to a different country.
The
advice of “Fake it until you make it” worked. Still does. Whether you want to
be a large business or just run a successful small one.
It
just requires you to believe in yourself. To believe that what you promise you
will deliver on. To exude the confidence that people WANT to deal with you
because they feel something special.
It’s
all about believing in yourself, your plan and your vision.
Conclusion
So
there they are, the 5 business lessons I wish I knew then, that I know now.
Without
question these 5 are cornerstones to my success.
As
a fellow entrepreneur I want to congratulate all those who decided to take the
plunge and start your own business. It takes a great deal of courage and
commitment to do so and I hope some or all of my lessons “learned the hard way”
may help you in your business and personal journey.
Bryan
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